It was great while it lasted :(

So it happened.

Had the talk. My fears soon surfaced.

I always knew she barely had the time to study, let alone have a boyfriend. Her rowing (in a boat) meant more to her than her studies. Her 'Bops' (Cambridge Nites out) meant more to her than everything else.

Another relationship always came to mind whenever I saw or met Kate. That broke down because one of the couple simply didnt have the time for the partner and the relationship. It applied here too. It gave me a thicker skin, and deep down I knew from my first Cambridge visit.

Was I a part of her life? Hell no. Did I want to be? Absolutely, more than anything else.

I asked her while she was lying in bed whether she still wanted the relationship.

She said yes, but as soon as there was a second of hesitation, I knew. I decided to go. 2 of her friends came in and were chatting. I could see it in her face she was hurting. I put a mask on and tried to act fine. I hadn't met them before, so i thought they wouldnt be able to figure out i wasn't 'right'

dont think Kate nor i convinced them

soon after they left, i left. both of us upset. wasn't any point in staying any longer. was there?

God i miss you babe. why do i do this to myself? Will I see you again? yes. Would there be any chance of it being like before? I think that one's for you to decide.

I sure as hell know how to pick 'em, eh?