Not a night I expected

So at 00:06 on Firday morning, there I am in bed with the laptop chatting away to Mr. Kewley. I suddenly realised that Friday 29th woulda been our 2month. :(

You know the feeling in your stomach just before you break down. It came as sudden as the realisation of the significance of that day. not fun.

Kept it all in, and continued with Dan, he knew something was up - told him i was just getting tired and that i just needed some sleep. Soon after I signed off and slept. Not a comfortable night's sleep.

LOL, but what did cheer me up was a pretty good day at work, Ian, my manager worked with me solid with the project i was based on and we did quite well - though not enough for me NOT to have to go in this weekend. BOTH DAYS

meh. On my way out of work at about quarter to 6, i noticed a missed call and a text. It was Roya. A stunning Iranian girl who I had met in St. Albans a number of times, but had only loosely been introduced. :) She had wanted to do something and called me up. I said I hardly knew her and that i thought it'd be great! (wierd I know)

To cut a long story short, I spent what would have been my 2month with my ex - with the mother of my future kids. And thats certainly no lie. Some real mixed feelings about all that......still such is life. You take whats dealt to you, but when you try and hold on to those cards, you're girlfriend finds she's simply too busy to put you in her life.

Shame that. I still miss u babe. xxx