Seriously Chilling....

A malignant growth or tumor caused by abnormal and uncontrolled cell division; it may spread to other parts of the body through the lymphatic system or the blood stream.

When 'googled' this is what came up after asking it to define: Cancer.

Why am I writing about it? One of my friends has a close family member who recieved terrible news. Doctors have decided against any form of treatment for this patient - and have decided to 'let nature take its course'.

How did I feel having read it on MSN? Numb. Dazed and confused. Seconds later - cried. First time since before Christmas. How to support this Friend faced with this prospect? I honestly have no idea. I'm working hard to keep this friend smiling - keeping their mind off things. But I fear I'm not all that good.

However - when I think about things - where are the close friends? I hardly define myself as a best friend to this person. Barely known them. This doesn't mean I care any less. I will be there for them. No matter what. I wanted to drive a distance to see them this coming weekend. My issue is this person's friends have't got back in contact with them. Sickening - I think how having been told this awful news that people dont call and make themselves 'there' for you.

This is my first instinct. Being there. Not much trouble picking up the phone and just talking. Letting your voice be heard. Allowing the third party to know there's someone to lean on should they need support in what I think are very very tough times.

I hapen to think this person is dealing with the news very very well. Far better than I would ever be able to do in that position. How would I recieve the news? I would break down. Need every friend out there to be there for me. I would depend on everyone and everything around me. Greeting that kind of news is not something I imagine I can ever take lightly. I guess some people deal with things differently eh?

It's mother's day this Sunday. I need to get my mum something special. She really deserves it - I'm a huge burden on her. Sayf and I need to make sure we treasure and value each minute we have with our family - God only knows when they won't be there to wake us up in the morning when we oversleep or drive us to work, the list goes on.

I really am here for anything you need - please just call.

xxx