remind me to blog my birthday

so

to explain for one unlucky reader - i am going to sleep with girl C (from work) not litereally sleep with her - just sleep with her. you know. i had the choice of that or sleeping on the floor in the same room, and she said she didnt have aporb with it in fornt of all my mates - so i said the same thing, and have regretted it ever since. u see we're going to Manchester this weekend, and accomodation is free - as long as i slept with her!

Could be worse, unless she starts to snore!! i did warn her - i have been known to on the odd very tired occasion!!

Work going very well, quite pleased with the outcome of today's Concultation announcement. means im not seriously affected until April the 1st! Still wanna go strip club next Friday though - what a laugh that'll be!!

jesus i get myself in a bit of a pickle sometimes!!

now. im tired and feeling particulary lazy but needed to get that out for the unlucky reader who already got a bit of a snippet earlier on 2day!

Will blog later on 2moz if i get the time - should met up with a best mate to chill and catch up - love him to pieces - he's there when i need him.

Oh and remind me to talk to u guys about girl E i think. things kicked off big style!

oh god

Dilly-Dallying about

Today at work. Did pretty much F all.

Do I like it at tme moment? No. I feel my time is kinda wasted. Especially when I know that Graduate Positions are so popular. I need to get good experience and a great variety of skills under my belt.

In a way - I guess I'm spoilt. I have expensive taste. I dont think I fully know the value of money. To some extent my parents have a protective cloud around me. I appreciate that and love it. But there needs to be a line drawn.

Therefore I need to start my career ASAP. I need money to buy a flat and settle down. I want to earn 6figures fast. Dad did it in about 4years of graduating Dentistry. I guess I'll need a lot of luck (and put all my skills to the test) if i hope to do it before I read 35.

I am career orientated. I have high aims and wish for nothing more than a 'comfortable' life.

My Birthday and my expectations for tonight:

We'll be in town from about 8-ish. Casa. Vintry and Lloyds. Depending on Lloyds, we'll go to Batch. Gala night, so we're expecting to pay extra. Open invitation to all who know about it. Can't wait. Told Mike and Sayf to wear suits wihtout Ties. Samrt Formal Casual. I hope we pull it off. Taking Nibs and my work Colloeague to Watford to buy a suit, and for him to buy some shoes. Should be an eventful night.

A reader made on strong and valid point. I'm not going to find the girl I want in Batch or St. Albans. I need to be looking elsewhere. I am too good for these girls. Despite you lot going in an uproar about it - its fact. I want what moost girls cannot give me. They say Girls mature quicker than guys - fair enough, but they dont mature in the way I want them to.

This 'Girl Power' is going over the top. I'll expand on that sometime in the future - as long as someone reminds me. I need to start walking to work, but the weather here needs to improve for that to start. I need to go to the gym.

Mum decorated my room today for my brithday. It looked great. Thanks Mum. I love her a great deal. Mucho respect to my Family. I love them to pieces.

Adios all.

Laterz.

F

not nice

I'm not a fan of Christmas

I'm not a fan of Easter

I'm not a fan of Valentine's day.

Sadly I have quite a cynical view of these things. These are simply money-making opportunities. Guys use them to impress the girlies. Girlies get material objects from them. Im not against the background to these times - just the fact that its forced upon you to BUY smething. If you dont (especially in Christmas) you'd look like a fool unless you had a good reason like Religion. Celebrate these times with the ones you love. Dont spend an awful lot on them.

Prime example. A friend spent £95 on dinner in London/ I mean what the fuck. £45 a head? jesus fucking christ. were they eating with Prince Charles? Jesus. (Many congrats to him BTW)

As for Valentine's day. First time in 3years I haven't had anyone to give anything to. Just goes to show how badly im doing at this point. I get offered sex - but it isn't what I want. Guys would love to be in position. People say im going to regret the decisions Iv made in the past. I happen to think not. Want to find someone I deeply care about.

I want to just sit in a chair or bed, and lay my head on a girls chest to hear her heartbeat. To feel the warmth off her. To touch her. To make her smile. Sex aint what im after.

So thats what I miss. What I long for. When I get it - I hope never to take it for granted. Until that day, il keep looking eh? My Birthday on Thursday. Not too much motivation for it all.

Sudenly feeling quite cold and left in the open.

Need a holiday. Work is a little slow and tiresome. Its actually quite de-motivating. At 15:00 i seem to hit a brick wall and have to drag it to 17:00. HItting the protien and salads - reducing Carb input. Hit the gym 3times in 5days. I'm quite impressed. Need more of a six-pack and some biceps. Need to see doctor to sort out spots on my back.

Did I say I needed a holiday?
When is the next student loan cheque due?
Think I wanna go through a round of saving quite a bit now.
Car needs a clean inside and out this weeked - hope the weather holds.
Need to sort out room - bit messy. Need to hang up the Pictures I bought. Might order a new desk from Ikea.
Im quite happy I started this blog. I hope it will remind me that I didnt just 'work' through this year.

One of my collegues is leaving soon. Its awfully sad. I can't imagine what it would be like without him. Probably very quiet. Really dont want him to go. He adds balance to the atmosphere. He's been a pillar of support that my manager can only dream of being IF he wasn't as lazy as he is. Jesus.

Need to find that fucking Office 2K3 disc.

Sayf will be coming back on Thurs for my Birthday. Should be good. It'd be good to have him back. I love how he comes back as often as he does. Id miss him a great deal otherwise. Makes things a great deal better. I still miss him. To this day, I cannot understand the current 18-19 year old thoughts of:

'Can't wait to leave home into uni - I just wanna get out of my parents house'

Fucking idiots. 'I wanna live just far away from my parents, like 4 hours drive'. Jesus fucking Christ. These are the people who brought you up for 18years. This is the love you show them? Fuck that.

I need a girl.

Going to meet me a Genius

Hey hey....

went to meet Emil in Regents Street at 19:00 today. His Power Book's Superdrive is failing and needs replacement - i suggested that we kill two birds with one stone and check out the store as well as get a second verdict on that drive.

All good fun. I never want to catch another bus....

On the way back (waited 40mins for the fucker) and had a £2 coin - the 'buy your ticket before your journey' machine dont give change - gay, so i waited till the bus came. Emil got on with his pre bought ticket and i asked for a ticket with my coin. bus driver pointed to the machine and drove off as i was buying my ticket. Cunt. As the bus drove away (im in disbelief at this point) i looked at Emils face - one of sheer shock!

Gonna come back to you later - have great nights people!

F

simpleness

Things are good.

Little is troubling me. I get I'm quite ignorant to others & their problems.

Sure I've have some of my own - and things can be better, but I cannot go forcing them to get better - its not going to improve things.

Girls
Work
chilling

Things are good in each of these - but they can be better. I'm not going out to my way to force them get better - I'm quite contempt with letting things take their route - make changes if required. Of course you guys are likely to be the first to know. Things at home are great too. Mum is kept happy by me clean room, Dad is kept happy with things as they are, not breaking the rules, and not asking him about the majority of his decision making.

Fair enough, its his castle - I'm in no position to question it.

Again - watching Ally MacBeal makes me wanna wear a suit to work - I love looking smart and proffessional. It looks nice! Might ask my physio out tomorrow - hope she wont be pissed at me for cancelling the appointment last week for the IEE meeting!

Thinking about getting a bit healthier and walking to work. It would mean buying a good raincoat and some comfy trainers or shoes. I hope it will improve my fitness. It will also give me time to think - and proper time to use my iPod. maybe walking for 2hours a day could help? MIght need a shower before getting in though!


We'll wait until the sun sets earlier.

Need sleep - good night all.

xxx

All the material things

Those who know me best know that I love my gadgets. But those very ones know Im a big fan of going out and doing things just like that - spare of the moment kinda thing....

Tomorrow 'The Four' are going to get tother while Sayf's at Essex. It'll be the first time. So - we'll see how that one goes. We'll start at about half seven and drive for over and hour. Should be a laugh - eh? It'll be the first time us four get together since before Nish's birthday....so we're kinda doing that now.

That reminds me - I still have Nish's birthday stuff in the boot of my car! Never mind.

This tool rocks. OS X rocks. Use it. Its there.

F

Officially 'Mac'd' up! :)

I am typing this blog on my very own Power Mac Dual 2.0 GHz G5. 64-bit Supercomputer in my bedroom. Wow. :)

The thing just works! It is my first mac - was quite cautious about doing something untoward like pressing something I shouldn't have done. One of the strangest things is the fact that you dont close windows on the top-right of each screen - its the top left!

The screen is HUGE. Its obvious why they call it the 'Cinema' screen. Really people, it is a sight to behold!

I got my very own Linux / unix Guru to go over it. He was impressed. It even ran and endless 'bash bomb' wihout crashing. X worked in the foreground flawlessly! :)

Went out last night to St. Albans and Batch last ngiht. It had been pointed out that I hadn't been out in 'Snorbs' on a Saturday in AGES. We're talking like maybe 8-9 months. I now know why. Its crap.

Expensive. nasty crowd of people. the 'Disco' room stank. uugghhh.

Right - I'm gonna call it quits for now. There must be something better I can do on this thing!

F