Was Caroline right?

So I feel kinda royally fucked off.

Perhaps she was right after all. I was often going to all the effort that others wouldn't go to. Trying my hardest to make the most of things. Taking the opportunity while its there. However, fuck all is received back and to be fair, it was Caroline who noticed this perhaps upto a year ago and pointed this out. How did I react?

I defended my 'friends'.

Well, tonight, I feel as if some light has been shone in my path. Light Caroline had tried to put my way.

For the purpose of the blog and perhaps my subconsciously, I feel weak, insecure, angry, trapped in a corner and without a shoulder to lean on.

I'm sorry

With my trusty XDA I'm...

Online while taking at dump again!! Yes people, my boss at work decided Santa was to visit us early this year and DHL us grads an O2 XDA mini S. Talk about lazy. I wanted to see the fat cunt climb down the disused Power-Station chimney's at work.

So what have I done since receiving our little toy? well, iv boosted the wireles access aroung my home,iv sorted out the internet (now at 4.4Mb/s down and 600Kb/s up) with the mac running 24/7 (albeit Sayf's)

Seriously, I'm even writing this blog on it without any issues.

Sayf and I started watching Smallville in March. I am officially in Love with Christen Kreuk. She is amazing. More chinese and dutch people need to make babies!!

oh, and at times I wish I were Lionel Luther at work.

All in my funny little head. but its is proper cool. Work will soon get me a 1GB tick of memory for this thing,needs it cos the built in 64MB isn't enough.

So even though I'm Muslim, I've obviously been a good boy. Never have I thanked Coca Cola so much!

Peace, whoever you are xxx

Fuck me, Christmas in 15mins

You know, life is running by me at such an amazing rate. I'm worried if I blink, I'll miss the next 10 years of my life. It feels like just yesterday I started with TfL, but its approaching 4months. Another big thing in my life this year was Caroline, although with that, little is brought up in my little head, perhaps a few minutes of the good times - then I'll remember I have something better to do than to dwell on a past that....hmmmm can't finish this sentance. Perhaps I'll have another go later.

So too is the end of 2006 coming at blistering pace. I did a great deal this year, looking back, I graduated, secured a great job and started looking for a place (and method) to buy. Whats different from last Christmas/New Years eve?

My confidence in the workplace is building again. 3Com was simply amazing in building a foundation. It really is the key to who I am at work. Colleagues around me notice the confidence, and one even said I'd be the one aiming for the top. I'd like to think that, but my aims are well focused on working from the ground up - earning the respect and sharing the confidence in my abilities. I can be cocky - but if I have every reason to be, why not? If I can back up my load-mouthed approach with results - who's going to care?

What are my aims for 2k7? As always, my friends and family take top priority. I want to be respected at work, and I would love to have bought a 2-bed flat somewhere in London, with a lodger helping me pay bills. However, I'd like to continue saving at the rate I'm currently doing so. Kudos to you Firas, well on track to getting that sizeable deposit :)

I find myself single again, but Caroline was an eye-opener to what I don't want. I'm in no rush to find my first True Love, I have things to do before all that. Miss right can wait until then, I might try have me some fun...

00:00 Christmas Day. Have a good one. I'll be decorating my new bedroom :)

Loads o' Love

typical geek me thinks!

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