more smoke, fire lit

Where's theres smoke - there's fire.....isn't that the saying?

Well, Roya was smoking loads 2nite, really pissed me off. I knew she smoked before we started going out, however I've never been out with anyone that smokes, and i thought id be able to handle it a great deal better -i just got back coughing my lungs out, and im pretty much loosing my voice!!

Not good. An issue we think - the 'box' wasn't ticked in this case. :)

To make matters a great deal worse - a great looking blonde - who I met briefly once came over to St. Albans tonight with the intention of pulling me. I really like this girl - she ticks ALOT of the boxes, mainly the ones Roya doesn't, so it was very very hard not taking the plunge and crossing the line. However i hate the idea of cheating on anyone, and with it literally being served 'on a plate' (really couldnt have had an easier pull) i managed to turn her down.

Heaven forbid - she goes to uni in Loughborough, and I told her of my issues with the Twats at 3Com. She said she was nice, and I happened to believe her - I blame the testosterone in my body for that one - gladly, it didnt take contorl of my decision making!

wow. great gal. Hope i meet her again someday - hopefully when I haven't just asked out a girl!!

need sleep, then a descent fry-up tomorrow. hmhmmmm.

Love ya loads,

F

My Condolences...

A very brave young woman has lost her Mother in the battle against Cancer. Smart people know the dangers - and yet continue to light up. I'm not sure how related smoking is in this case - however its clear smoking is linked to Cancer.

Why light up?

Astounds me. To the point where I'm gonna call it a night.

My sincere apologies babe.

Firas

Note:Blog

tired as Fcuk.
Director of group likely to come in tomorrow from states - need to get in extra early
Things with one of the said Girls kicking off again, quite nicely too
staff @work being twats
haha - just got off phone to Sayf, he worrying about accomodation next Academic year. Told him was a twat for not staying at home like I - and reapin the rewards!!

Must continue with note form blog, letters on keyboard all looking tha same....

Mike has free house all week, smoking sheesha, chilling with guys, Sayf missed out
Looking forward to Pompey this Friday night
got new phone - absolutely rocks, wish i knew how to use the bastard
Apple Mac still sweet as FCUK - learning new sh!t on it every day
HDD needs packing
Hugo Boss shoes need polishing
need sleep
converting Friends Season 1 to XviD. Class.

need sleep badly. if im bored, il blog tomorrow.

Laters

Seriously Chilling....

A malignant growth or tumor caused by abnormal and uncontrolled cell division; it may spread to other parts of the body through the lymphatic system or the blood stream.

When 'googled' this is what came up after asking it to define: Cancer.

Why am I writing about it? One of my friends has a close family member who recieved terrible news. Doctors have decided against any form of treatment for this patient - and have decided to 'let nature take its course'.

How did I feel having read it on MSN? Numb. Dazed and confused. Seconds later - cried. First time since before Christmas. How to support this Friend faced with this prospect? I honestly have no idea. I'm working hard to keep this friend smiling - keeping their mind off things. But I fear I'm not all that good.

However - when I think about things - where are the close friends? I hardly define myself as a best friend to this person. Barely known them. This doesn't mean I care any less. I will be there for them. No matter what. I wanted to drive a distance to see them this coming weekend. My issue is this person's friends have't got back in contact with them. Sickening - I think how having been told this awful news that people dont call and make themselves 'there' for you.

This is my first instinct. Being there. Not much trouble picking up the phone and just talking. Letting your voice be heard. Allowing the third party to know there's someone to lean on should they need support in what I think are very very tough times.

I hapen to think this person is dealing with the news very very well. Far better than I would ever be able to do in that position. How would I recieve the news? I would break down. Need every friend out there to be there for me. I would depend on everyone and everything around me. Greeting that kind of news is not something I imagine I can ever take lightly. I guess some people deal with things differently eh?

It's mother's day this Sunday. I need to get my mum something special. She really deserves it - I'm a huge burden on her. Sayf and I need to make sure we treasure and value each minute we have with our family - God only knows when they won't be there to wake us up in the morning when we oversleep or drive us to work, the list goes on.

I really am here for anything you need - please just call.

xxx